4 days overdue

Today is a regular Sunday like any other to everyone, but to me it’s been a special Sunday. I’m 40 weeks and 4 days pregnant, which means I’m 4 days overdue. For most people it just means that they have to wait a little longer or that they will get induced.

In my case, in my first birth I had to go through a c-section (because Sam was breech and I was low on fluid). This time around, I’ve been planing, hoping, wishing and praying for a vaginal birth after c-section – VBAC. It’s not so simple. I only have 2 options: he will either come absolutely natural, with no inductions at all or it will be another c-section.

Induction is not an option according to my OB in whom I trust, because it could cause the contractions to be stronger than they would be if brought by my own body. And by being stronger, they could cause the previous incision to rupture. So we’re not gonna take this risk.

We woke up in the morning and went to church like every Sunday. It was a great service! Very encouraging!!! Then we came back home, played with Sam, did some getting-ready-for-Daniel’s-arrival organizing during the day, got Sam ready for bed and now I’m sitting on my couch waiting for a fabulous dessert my mom is making, which she hasn’t made in years, I would say.

Everyone in the house is acting normal and doing their own things: My mom went out for a walk, while the “Pudim de Leite” (brazilian flan) is baking in the oven, Deivid is down in the basement watching the 2016 Olympic Games, which are happening in Brazil this year, my aunt is getting ready to go to bed – yup, it’s 7:45pm and she’s going to bed! Sam is already sleeping, and I’m here. Sitting  with my legs elevated to ease the swelling, while reflecting in this amazing Sunday. For them it seems like it will be an average night, but for me this could be it!!!

I can see the lack of faith in some people’s eyes, hear it in some others’ voices, that this baby will come earlier than my last day, when I turn 41 weeks. It’s not safe to go beyond that and I’m not taking the risk. But I believe that it’s possible that labor will come naturally for me.

Since yesterday I’ve been reflecting in this great thought God put in my mind and heart: I can have a “suddenly” moment in my life right now. You know when you’re reading the bible and it says “but suddenly” or “and suddenly” and it causes the whole situation to change? Yeah. I can have that moment happen before Wednesday, when the surgery is scheduled for.

I can feel some mild contractions, just like the ones I felt in my entire pregnancy. But I also feel my cervix opening up (I don’t even know if women can feel this happening, but I feel something going on down there). I can also feel a strong pressure in the bottom of my belly. All of that is great, but most importantly, I feel this great faith in my heart that it will happen. I have great friends, who I saw today at church and they fed this faith as they said they were praying and believing in it with me!

This whole vaginal birth thing might not mean a lot to many people, but it does to me. It is the way God designed our bodies to function, it is what it’s meant to do and I just wanna be able to experience it this way! There’s a bit of doubt in the back of my head if it will all happen. But if it doesn’t I’m ok too, because I want His will over mine. I want His plans over mine, His ways over mine, so I’m in peace!

Come, baby Daniel. Come! Just the way God sends you! I already love you so much!


You’re the light of the world

Faith in Jesus and knowing Him were the best thing that could have ever happened in my life. If you share the same faith as I do, you can agree with that. And if it’s so amazing, then we just wish everybody would know about it. Right?

I didn’t grow up knowing the Lord and in fact I learned a lot of things with the world — a lot of bad things. And because I’ve experienced those things and I know they don’t lead anyone to a place even close to happiness, satisfaction or contentment, I just wish even more that everyone will come to know the love of Jesus so they won’t have to suffer the agony of living a life of sin and darkness.

A few days ago, my husband shared a little bit of his faith on facebook. Like me, he didn’t know the Lord in the way we do today until a couple of years ago, and he too lived a life of things that were learned in the world. We both, sure made a lot of mistakes, but that is past now and we’re new creatures in Christ Jesus, forgiven and redeemed by His blood that was shed on the cross. We were changed and transformed by His love.

This kind of transformation is only possible through the love of Christ. Whoever read my husband’s word of faith on facebook that day didn’t and doesn’t know the love of Jesus yet. That man cursed, brought up things from the past and argued with hurtful words…

We read his comment, got angry, sad and anguished. Then, we remembered the grace, mercy and love of Christ, that have brought us to where we are today: a place of peace, living everyday to pursue God’s will.

That situation made me remember a sentence that spoke a lot to me as I was reading “The 5 Habits Of A Woman Who Doesn’t Quit” a couple days ago: opposition is always an opportunity for God to reveal Himself. If you stop and think about it, it really is. So I believe all the stress we had, might have been a real opportunity for God to reveal Himself.

So if you’re going through a situation of opposition, don’t worry. God is working and there’s always opportunity for God’s love and mercy to be revealed to someone. Stay strong and don’t give in. Share your faith and your testimony with confidence. Trust in the Lord and in the times of opposition there will be the opportunity of his revelation, bringing change and transformation to the life of those who need it the most.

“You are the light of the world. A town built on a hill cannot be hidden. Neither do people light a lamp and put it under a bowl. Instead they put it on its stand, and it gives light to everyone in the house. In the same way, let your light shine before others, that they may see your good deeds and glorify your Father in heaven”  Matthew 5:14-16

I just pray God will be revealed to that man and that soon He will be the one sharing his testimony of faith and encounter with Christ’s love. I pray that you and I will be bold to continue sharing our faith even when there’s opposition, and in that God will be revealed!